I love him...

I love you. But i can't be with you right now. It's me, not you..as cliche as that sounds...its true. As much as it hurts me to admit it to myself, and now to you...

I wish with all of my heart that this didn't happen. That these feelings would just disappear....and i tried for months to ignore it and teach myself different...but they never did.

I want to marry you. I wanna have your children....One day. But not now.

When i'm ready for you. When i'm in a different place.

Will you wait for me? I know its selfish to ask...but i can't help but hope that you will...and understand if you can't. But who am i to ask this of you after what i've done....

I can't help but hope...

No matter what, i will always love you...

Despite what you may or may not think...you are the love of my life....

-S