Another battle is waging

My heart and my head will never agree on any one subject...love, like or otherwise.

I think i've come to that conclusion but i can't help but be sad about it...especially now.

I know how i feel about him....but there are so many problems...

I know how i feel about him...but my mind feels like there's no point at this moment...let it go!

After so long, i'm not sure if i can. But i think something in me already has...but what it has let go of, i'm not sure.

I really need to stop thinking so much...i should be sleeping actually haha...

I wonder if the insomniac shall make another appearance...

Love.Live. Life guys

-S

Crap....

I'm having dreams of things i don't want to dream about.

It makes me crave what i can't have and thats not healthy...is it?

They are getting progressively worse...and when i don't dream about it...i have nightmares....really bad nightmares.

Sometimes i'm afraid of going to sleep. So weird lol i know.

But when i dream this dream....it makes me want it so much more. What do i do?

Follow through means hurting someone i care for. Sigh.

What do i do?

finally!!

i'm working again! its not the greatest job but it gives me money and freedom so yaaaaaaaaaay!

other than that, my tummy has been cramping a lot for some odd reason. If it persists past the weekend, i'm gonna make an appt to see my doctor.

that is all kiddies :)


Love.Live.Life

-S