I've come to a realization

As i sit here chilling in my room, i've come to an astounding revelation...

I wear my heart on my sleeve.....immensely. I can't help it. Everything i do, i do with all of me especially when it comes to love. I'm not sure if its because i think it won't last, so i want to get as much of the good stuff as possible, or because i just want my emotions to be known and there to be no secret about it. Either way, i love hard....i like hard....i fuck hard...and apparently at times i can be hard....

All or nothing baby!

-S

so catch the joke...

Hey, just wanted to say, hope everything is good with you. Saw the pic of you and the baby mama you said you never had. You guys are cute ! Hope it works out with you two and thank you for allowing me to dodge that bullet :) I had fun doing it lol
Have a good life!

Is what i said to this niggah who i went on a date with, who went on to tell me, upon discovering a carseat in his back seat, that he didn't have a baby mama and that when i said, i wouldnt mind dating a guy who did have children, told me he respects me so much more and bla bla bla! Like why lie? Its not like i would have respected you any less because of it, shit happens and if your taking care of your responsibility, I am not one to just write someone off because of it. It makes me happy that i was a little too busy for him at that time, to really see him that much, plus i didn't sleep with him when he asked for me to go back to his place...Thank you conscience!! hahaha

I <3 dating life lol

Happy 200 post to me/Tarot

Yaaay! 200 posts, i'm quite happy with myself....

It probably would have been sooner should i have actually kept track and just wrote in here when i knew i wanted to, but just never a) got the courage or b)was just utterly far to lazy to do so :) anyway....it has happened and i'm happy for this.

Anyway, onto the Tarot card reading that i had yesterday....It's funny...i had it done before and it had said some things that actually turned out to be quite true, now that i think back on it...including my break up with my recent boyfriend. So to say i was naturally intrigued about what it might propose for me this time was a statement already made in my mind.

This reading was about my financial status and about my love life....apparently I won't be finding mr. right anytime soon, but will definitely be finding a lot of mr. right nows, that will satisfy me for a moment, and then i will get bored or dissatisfied and move on. Its a little unnerving i suppose because i've always seemed to be the "relationship girl" and now it seems like i'm not going to be that girl anymore. The whole scenario reminds me of this girl i used to know but i digress.....

As for my financial status, it said i shall be accomplishing a goal that i've been trying to accomplish for quite some time now, and that be continuing to do so, as the hurt of my relationships...meaning i need to find a balance. I can see that happening i suppose...i really want to be a nurse and unfortunately for me, i am willing to hold off on a serious relationship until i become super stable, or at least in my own home, whether that be condo, apartment or actually house (ya most likely the former and not the latter).

Anyway, that was pretty much the synopsis, but it can change, or so i am told so we will see...

Kind of creepy...isn't it?

-S