It's been a minute

It's been a while since i've been on here and its mostly because a lot has happened from the last time i was on here....

Firstly, the job was lost due to the lack of correct management on their part. Basically, when you have teenagers running a company (not literally but you know what i mean) and you refuse to listen to your first line workers then you run the risk of losing majorly. This is exactly what has happened to this company and frankly i saw it coming last year when i started working there. I knew it was going to happen but i'm not sad...i'm not worried because i always seem to find myself back on my feet when it comes to working and making money so meh....


In other news, while i was on vacation in FL in july, a week after i found out i lost my job, i found out that i finally passed my exam!!!! I'm so excited because its been so much in the making. It has taken so much time and i'm just happy my last exam is finally done. I may not have to take another exam for the rest of my life. That is such a gratifying feeling that i cannot even describe. It makes me feel new and fresh....During the time that i was waiting for my results, my ex released his album and a song on there helped me relax and reevaluate my life. It made me really turn to God and ask him to let things happen. I had a talk with God. I know to some that may sound stupid but honestly, i needed to. I told him that i was grateful to still be alive. I told him that no matter what happens, that i know he has a plan for me and that i know i just need to relax and know that God would never let anything happen that he knows i cannot handle. I said thank you and that at the end of the day, i need to just let it go and let things happen. I need to free myself of any struggles that i feel and know that God will help me accomplish what i need to do. And that is exactly what is happening. I'm happy i finally did it because i don't think i've ever felt this relaxed and this happy. I know i've said that before but i really feel that this time. I feel light and happy. I think this is actually the reason why everything else in my life is falling into place.

In other news, i'm finally done with my ex and he just might be done with me to. Am i ok with that? At this point, with the way it happened, i might be because i feel like i was made out to be some heartless bitch who strung this guy along and didn't tell him that i was done. It had been over a year and i never made any inclinations that i wanted to be back with him and i told him time and time again not to wait for me because i wasn't sure i wanted to be back with him at the end of the day. My heart had moved on and while something in me knew i needed to tell him that it was done and over, it was hard to. When i finally did, i got a very angry response, granted it was warranted but at the end of the day, you don't ask for your stuff back and think that you can then act like some sort of torrid victim when it has been a year.

Sigh....in any case, we aren't talking and i'm alright with that. Right now i'm dating someone new and he's really cool. I've given myself time to really reevaluate myself and to just feel better about myself. I've told him i'm damaged goods and he laughed. He said that we can work on that and each other and i'm ok with that. I'm still technically single but i am not having sex and i'm dating this guy almost exclusively.

We shall see what will happen with that. So yea...thats what has been going on in my life lol....

Its been quite hectic. Right now i'm in Florida enjoying the sun and my last remnants of summer...Hope anyone else who actually takes the time to read this...is doing the same.

xoxo
-S